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have just realized that this has been one of the most bizarre weeks of my adult life. I have not had a drink since Monday, and then only two. I have not been to Manhattan, even on the subway - even out of my neighborhood! - since last Friday. I haven't seen my honey since Friday. I've barely spoken to my friends and family (for weeks). I haven't seen anyone I know except my roommate in seven whole days! I feel like I'm on house arrest. I feel like I'm on house arrest and my sentence has just been extended. It's just one more day. And if I stay up all night and get this thing done by morning, I will be able to get plenty of sleep in time to celebrate tomorrow night. And if i don't, if I'm sleeping instead of carousing, that will be fine too. Either way, this thing is happening.

Update: (I've been really lazy about starting new posts this week, haven't I? 15 posts in 11 days is plenty.) 3:19am - At 1, I decided that to set the wheels in motion I would input all of my "disjointed drafts" into a full draft with that which I had already polished so that I could essentially concentrate on polishing one document instead of rearranging, cutting and pasting, etc. Well, as a result I have a total of 85 pages including title page and bibliography. Um. I only need 50. Which means I have a lot of trimming to do, and the Cat's Cradle section is in dire need of attention (which means I'm putting it off), but I certainly don't have to worry about length. I already decided to reduce my discussion of the connection between med and ice-nine to a footnote, and I'm going to have to omit my analysis of what Jonah says constitutes his karass, but it's for the best. I need to keep in mind that my main focus is memory and writing - not things we can look at in an analysis of memory and writing. Which would be everything. Anyhoo, I'm up to page 20 and not looking back. Time for a snack. And maybe some coffee. It's not like it's past my bedtime... Monday I'm going back to being only moderately nocturnal, I swear. If I wasn't writing, I would go to bed right now, but I am so I'm making coffee. Almost there.