I'm not sure why

I don't really feel like blogging today. I'm not in a bad mood or anything, or feeling especially lazy, I don't know what it is.

I met with my adviser this afternoon, and I think it went really well. I feel very confident that I can accomplish this and, although I have a lot (and I mean, a lot) more work to do, I have a pretty decent foundation to build from. Main points from that meeting:

1. I need to incorporate more theory and criticism.
This is not a surprise to me. Well, actually I wasn't expecting her to encourage as adamantly as she did that I bring in more critics to argue against (which is what I would be doing - I don't agree with most of what I've read). The theory I was fully prepared to have to incorporate more of.

2. My transitions need work and I need to clarify a lot of things.
Again, when I went through my draft last night, I wrote on every single page "clarify," "explore," "extend," "elaborate," "better transition," "clumsy," so I was also prepared for her to say this as well.

3. I need to describe more banally what is going on in the texts.
Another good thing about taking a week and a half away from my paper is that I was getting too close to it to be able to contextualize what the hell I was saying in a way that would be clear to a reader who was not myself. Go figure.

4. And the sections on Cat's Cradle and Castle need to be expanded, more thoroughly explored, and completely reorganized.
In Cat's Cradle I'm going to go into the use of Bokononism as purposefully lying to oneself, the logic behind knowingly being illogical (that's the plan, anyway), and in Castle I'm going to further explore the use of "always" and "never," and verb tense, and how Merricat's portrayal of continuity is undermined by her own description of events.

5. I also need to bring out the historical context more explicitly.
Discussing Alan Nadel's Containment Culture: American Narrative, Postmodernism, and the Atomic Age (which I only mention briefly) will surely help, but I will probably bring in a few more of the critics that I've read, if only in footnotes.

Good things: she really liked my intro, which I wasn't sure about. She seems to like my ideas and encouraged me to throw in all the stuff I wasn't sure about throwing in, which would illustrate all of the work that I've done. And I only have two and a half weeks to turn in the next draft, so I don't have time to goof off too much.

A few of my fellow thesis-writers and I are having an editing party on Sunday, so I want to have something ready for that, and then I want to have another version ready the following week to show my favorite study-buddy (you know who you are), and then I have a week to have something bright and shiny for my adviser on April 5.

Maybe it's the wet and cold that has me all - whatever the words are for this feeling (even though we know we can't completely put feelings into words). I want to get out of the house, but it's gross outside, so I should prepare myself for a night in, but I really want to go out. I'm not sure why.